Hello again! I know it's been a long while since we have
last had a little chat, (like 6 whole weeks BLAH!). The last six weeks has been
quite the roller coaster ride. I have had some incredible ups, and some very
depressing downs. I don't know if it's just the type of person I am, or if my
body is just trying to catch up with all I am (and have) put it through. This
might be a longer than normal post because I have a lot to catch up on (sorry).
So let's go back, shall we. Buckle up it’s going to be a bumpy ride (she says
in a Jamaican accent (name that movie))
The last time I checked in, I weighed 221.6, and I had moved
a button hole on my belt! I am still at that button hole and had lost another 3
POUNDS!!!!!! But then the downhill spiral started, and I figured out I have NO
WILL POWER!!!! When I go grocery shopping for my parents, I buy meat and
vegetables. Mostly healthy foods. But when I go to the store for myself, when nobody
is going to be home, I buy oreos, chili, mac and cheese ( chili-mac is the best
comfort food just saying), and milk. So when I house sat for a friend I ate
chili-mac at least two meals a day, and I think I had oreos for breakfast two
of the four days I stayed. Not to mention I stayed in bed watching Netflix
those two days as well. I had no desire to go out and do anything. The weather
was beautiful, and I stayed in bed and felt sorry for myself. Looking back on
that weekend, I don't know why I was so depressed. The next week was no better
for my attitude, but my eating was better (at least for a couple of days)
because I was at home. I started to come back up from the awful attitude I had,
and then I started house sitting again. And what did I do the first night I
stayed there?!?!?!? I went to the store and bought oreos, milk, and
butterfingers. Please tell me HOW that was a good idea?!?!?! What in Heaven's
name was I thinking! I knew that if I bought crappy food, I would fell crappy.
Yet I continued to buy crap the whole time I stayed there. So for those of you who are counting I had 3
packages of oreos! (yes 3, I know) And when I realized how far backwards I had
fallen, it made me feel even worse. But I looked at myself in the mirror, and I
could see the changes that have been taking place. So I squared my shoulders,
lifted my head, and told myself enough was enough!
For the next 3 days ( I was back at home by now) I did
really well. I ate five meals a day, all at about 300 calories ,and I drank my vitamin water zero (lemonade
flavored is the best kind). I was feeling pretty good! Then I started to slide
back in my eating. I think I had a butterfinger one day, and then the next day
I had a cookie or two or five. But I kept telling myself tomorrow is a new day,
you can start again tomorrow. So then I would do great all day long, and then
when I got home for dinner I would gorge myself, because I thought I was
starving! When really, I could have had a small portion and been full enough.
Now that I have told you all the BAD things I have done, let's on a the silver
lining of these experiences.
I am down to 220, as of June 19th ( I had gained 2 pounds
since the previous time I had weighed) but I know why I gained the weight. I
know how to fix my problem. Over the last week, I have been really trying to do
my best (although I have been in a baking mood, so my church friends benefit.
But I still have no will power when it comes to cookie dough). I had a
conversation with my mom about why my will power sucks! I think it is the monotony
of eating the same stuff every day, for every meal. ALL. THE. TIME. I am so
bored with chicken, and turkey. So I want to hear from you! What is your
favoritest healthy meal. I need ingredients, time cooked (if need be). I will
start to share a meal each week, of something different I made throughout the
week. And starting July 2nd (because my mom and I made a deal with our friend
Pam, that if we didn't eat French Fries over the last two months, we could get
French Fries and Frosties on July 1st) for 30 days, we are doing a clean eating
frenzy. This means no DEEP FRIED SUGAR (like French Fries and Frosties) I
challenge each of you to pick at least one day during the week and do the clean
eating frenzy with us that same day each week for the 30 days!
I want to give my mom a shout out this week. When we first
starting this, her goal was to catch me, and my goal was not to let her. Well
last week she was two pounds from me. I am so very proud of my mom! She has
been an inspiration to me! She has started to run again too! A couple of weeks
ago, she started walking Tubbs hill in Coeur d'Alene. Then that got too easy
for her, so she started running it! For those of you who have not been to Tubbs
hill, it's basically a hiking trail that goes up and down and around this hill
that is next to the lake. Today (June
25) she ran it in her personal best time, of 30 mins! She is looking great, and
I am pretty sure she caught me this week! WAY TO GO MAMA!
On a medical note, I recently went to the Ophthalmologist to
see (haha no pun intended) what was going on with my optic nerve. And he said
it is staying the same. Now the reason I bring this up is because about six or
seven weeks ago I stopped taking the medication that had prescribed to help
reduce the hypertension. When I first went to the Doctor he said that weight
loss would also help this problem. So I followed his instructions, but I also
continued to see my great Chiropractor! Every six weeks we take scans of my
spinal cord, and the nerves that are wrapped around it, to see how my body is
healing and doing. The scans six weeks ago showed I had lots of issues.
Basically my body was fighting, but it was still out of whack. But the scans I took
last week showed MAJOR improvements. I had only two slightly troubled spots,
and the most improved spot was in my atlas (which is at the base of my neck)
Six weeks ago the scan color was black (black is the worst), and last week the
color was white (white is the best). I am so grateful for Dr. Amy and her
staff! They have been wonderful, and have been keeping me healthy!
I have two goals for this week. 1) publish another blog post
no later than July 5th (Andrew I expect a PM if I have not posted by Saturday
night), and 2) find at least 2 new recipes to try out this week.
When I first started this I said I refused to starve myself,
and that is still the case. But I want to amend that statement. It should say,
I refuse to starve myself or bore myself with my life style changes. I love to
eat, and I WILL find a way to make this work to my advantage! Thank you all for
joining me on my roller coaster ride! I really hope it inspires somebody!
Here are some updated photos of me!
June 20, 2013 |
May 22, 2014 |
And don't forget, You can shine no matter what you're made of!