The hardest part of a relapse is coming out of it. I do well
for a couple hours and then something will go wrong. Either I get hangry,
(that’s a mixture of hungry and angry) so I walk to the break room and buy some
crack donuts and a Mtn. Dew. Or I am off work, and headed home and hangry, so
we stop at Wendy's and get french fries and a frosty. The working out bit,
isn't going much better. I would love to blame this all on the fact that I am
busy with going to watch my cousins volleyball games (which is partly true) but
the whole point of this lifestyle change is to learn to cope with being busy. I
know there are people out there who are WAY busier than I will ever be, and
they are healthy. It's all about finding the right routine. The right habits
that work for me. Because the habits that I am in right now are crap! This is a
new week, there is nothing I can do about last week, so we start over! (Did you
like my pep talk?)
I am interested to see how this month goes. I started house
sitting on Wednesday October 1st. I didn't really bring food to the first house
I am house sitting at. Some good food was left for me, but I had said that I would
bring my own food. (Guess what? I didn't! How lame is that) I ate the bananas,
and some of the carrots. I remember a few blog posts ago, I had decided that I
needed to be prepared whenever I left my house for an extended period of time.
Because if I don't have the necessary food provisions, I tend to go AWOL on my
plan. I get lazy, and just go for speed and availability. (Hence the crack
donuts) PS I don't want ANYONE to think
I am blaming the owners of the house I am house sitting for. I did not expect
anyone to provide my food for me. I KNOW that I need to be responsible (I just
wasn't)
Today I switch houses, and today I really am on my own! My
goal this month is to reach that 200 pound mark, I have been working for since
(I feel like) forever. I know it’s a tall order, but I WILL do it. (Maybe if I
write it down it will be easier to remember) It's time I stop using every
excuse in the book, and get down to it. I had been losing weight before, so I
know I can do it again. My mom and I were talking about my cousin's volleyball
team, and how they get in their own heads when they make a mistake out on the
court, and I just realized that is what I do when I eat something bad. I beat
myself up about it, and then I get depressed and then I eat MORE crack donuts. What's
that song that’s out now, that ALL the kids are singing? …… "Let it
go"
Alright folks! Let's get down to business!
This week, I will take it day by day. These are my goals for
the week:
1. To lose three pounds.
2. NO CRACK DONUTS
3. Exercise at least five days this week. (even if I just go
on a walk)
4. Start a food journal again
I am going short and sweet this week. It's time to get the
train back on track. I know life can be frustrating, I know we can lose our way
with the things we want to accomplish. But as long as we have a support system,
one that is always there for us, we can do anything! You will be surprised at
the people willing to lend their support when you tell them you are making a
healthy life style change! So go out there and change the world! (or your
world, whichever you feel like today) And remember, You can shine NO MATTER
what you're made of!